Day 48 - 13 October 2012

So, I didn't wake up with the alarm this morning. I snapped to about 0615 and sent Meagan some messages. I tossed and turned for a while last night and had a nice chat with Joy on Facebook. I think I finally got to sleep sometime between 0200 and 0300. I'm not sure why I was so wired, but it was strange...I probably could have pulled an all-nighter. So, I will talk to the family tomorrow morning.

I finally rolled out of bed at 1130 to get around for lunch. Lunch was good today. I love the grilled cheese here! I also had ham, rice, and green beans. Not really a bad combo, but certainly not a combination I would fix together at home!

I'm learnin' who you've been ain't who you've gotta be
It's gonna be an uphill climb, oh honey I won't lie...
I still got a few more dances with the devil
I’m cleaning up my act little by little...
I ain't as good as I'm gonna get, but I'm better than I used to be...
"Better Than I Used to Be" - Tim McGraw

I've been listening to this song a lot today; and, although it isn't exactly about my particular situation, it keeps my mind focused on the act of cutting smoking out of my life. That said, I did have a slight setback today. I did have one cigarette. Baby steps, I suppose. I tried to jump off a cliff and it was tough. I made it three days before I "needed a fix" to keep my sanity. So, I will reset my clock and possibly keep track of what I have smoked. Certainly, one cigarette in three days is MUCH better than a pack in a day...I have to try putting some type of positive reinforcement in there; otherwise, I look at it as failure. Small battles will win the major war...and, I am winning the majority of the small battles!

In my coversation with Joy last night, she asked me if I had been able to decorate my pumpkin yet. I had not, but I told her I would do it at work today, since I had a good feeling it would be pretty slow. So, after getting a couple of things taken care of, I broke out the pumpking and Mr. Potato Head parts.

So, I sent an email to Disney World through their site a few weeks ago. I got a canned email back about the military salute. I want to reply back and ask them if they even read my email. Seriously...there is NOTHING in this email I don't already know...and, I even told them we were there last year! Wow... We'll keep trying!

Dinner tonight was a cheeseburger, baked beans, and cabbage salad. The chicken and fish didn't really look appealing to me.

Went back to work finished cleaning up the office a little bit. Not much going on tonight and I'm the only one in, so I figured I could clean up the place a little. I didn't do a whole lot, but got some stuff organized and swept/swiffered the floor.

Ok...time to head back to the room. The race is on early morning here and I'm going to try watching/listening to it! Night all...God bless!